17

17. an age that i don't want to reach and here i am 

damn. can't believe that im 17 years old now. didn't plan to live that long wtff 😭

abah brought me to riakar and we daftar my lesen motor together. it didn't feel real. abah also already tempah new motorcycle for me. wow masyaallah alhamdulillah. I'm grateful for your rezki ya Allah. what did i do to deserved those love from my father hmm. to abah, i may not say this Infront of you but im very grateful for what you did to me today. knowing that other people don't experience this from their fathers make me feel so loved my you. I'm so lucky to be your daughter ;)

insyaalllah i will try my best to repay everyone's kindness

being 17 is.......lonely. actually i don't know what to feel. it's so unreal. i still feel like upsr is just yesterday. and i still remember everyone's reaction, especially my mom when i got 5A and 1B. lol im so dramatic back then. but being 17 also mean that ...im sitting on SPM.. which is a bigger exam than upsr. and an exam that will decide everyone's new reaction for me. what are they gonna think about me? will they be proud of me? or are they gonna be disappointed of me? idk 

we will have to wait and see :) 

i don't wanna be 17. i want to stay and be a 13 years old teenager back. i miss being on pkp where life just going on and u don't have to do anything. you just need to have fun. 

i don't know if i will do well on SPM or not. it's a scary thing that I've never imagined in my life. BECAUSE I DIDNT THINK THAT I WILL REACH THIS AGE. I THOUGHT THAT IM GONNA DIE AFTER UPSR. no one understands what i feel and what I'm trying to say. frustrated sangat

i guess i will just follow the flow and make a dua for Allah to ease everything for me. i just want to make my parents proud. ya Allah pls pls help me be a better person. 

v, 17 years old
12.04 am , 22/2/24
jb

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